Do not judge, or you too will be judged.

East Coast Poly Cluster Meeting Experience...

2006-06-18T03:05:00.000+08:00

I found my mentor in life. She enlightened me. I needed just all these.
Someone who speaks from experience, someone who is so generous with words. And someone who truly loves me for who i am.
I needed someone to talk to. /really.
She showed me the way. This is perhaps God's Will, by using her to get to me.
I love her.
Just by merely few hours of preaching. I realised what i'd become. Finally, what i should become.
My Mindset has Changed.

Let the Wind and Waves fill with yr Love O LORD.
I was feeling this strong era of God's Love.
One which was so real. One which was so to speak, overwhelming.
But why my mind is so blank, and yet so confused? Why am i not focused? N why do i doubt u?
I seek an answer.
Your Love and strong force filled my body and soul.
My heart felt as though it was filled with overexerted pressure, like the blood in my arteries were compressed as though it was nvr lack.
My blood was cleansed.
I am a New Creation now.
And that from today, i'll be a changed person.
I know tmr when i awake, i'll not be the same person again.
I'll live a different life.
The life u want me to live as i know it is u that i wanna change to be better.
I can't believe what i'm writting now.
You just made a big impact in my life.
AMEN.

I CRIED.

She prayed for me to be a woman of character.
She prayed that i'd find a man of god to love me, and willing to risk his life for me...
She sees the tender heart in me.
Slowly transforming into a woman.
She sees my fears.
She understands it all without asking a word.
She did an impact in my life.

But why my mind is so blank, and yet so confused? Why am i not focused? N why do i doubt u?
I seek an answer.

I'm learning to believe.
And i believe i'll believe.
AMEN.

Great Singapore Sales!

2006-06-05T05:43:00.000+08:00

GSS is driving me crazy! And tmr, i'll be going for a shopping tour with Sylvia. :)). Exams is finally over. It's time to do some meetups with my long lost friends. People like ramona, caihua, huilin, tammie, joanna, peiyin and chialer. Wanna meet them soon. They are always the first few people i wanna meet whenever i have the time. However, i do understand if each of them are busy. but as long as i have the time i'll wait :D.
Oh oh ohohoho btw. smth sweet just happened not too long ago. Danny said he miss me! This is driving me crazy danny who plays the bass misses me!?! :) I'll be meeting up with him next next week. hee. don worry i'm just a fan of him not an admirer.
WEll well, what's up for whole of next week, i see a week of e-learning tests to complete, and fyp to be discussed. yes i c. Brainstorming of my final year project gonna implement next saturday. What else has been forseened...hmz... ah har!! my 5th month anniversary with my baby dear! hohz... but but but we've been meeting up with alot of ordeals. hopefully we can pull through this all tgt. hugzZZ. :)
health wise... my cough has been recovered... praise the lord... hee!! for all the care and concern i had from my fellow friends. Zimin, caihua and alll love u all so muchz... :) but instead now they are sick :(. It is ok. I'll keep u girls in my prayers and God will heal u. heh..
ohnno... 2 bad news for me... i may have problems with my eye maybe an eye surgery... and... my bone mass affecting my hormones... but it's ok... i'm ready to fight any sickness and illnesses... life is short so is it long depending on individuals...
Earlier this month, i hated friends who did not appreciate what i did for them. As ppl know that i am a very helpful and cheerful person they take me for granted. They think that oh she will not mind and yes she can cope with it. I help my friends out of the account on they are my friends and once treated me like how a friend should treat me. But, at that time i felt that they used me as a tool. I was sad. But Jesus gave me a forgiving heart. I'm always so soft-hearted no matter how fierce or strong or sassy i can appear to be. When u need help i'll never turn away from u. But why help ppl who do not help themselves? why do ppl still complain abt friends when they don look at what are they doing to be left out in a group? Brings me back to the angels in history. Ppl get unhappy and they try to make their friends unhappy by saying that i don feel that u're my good friend at all, and that all along we've been good friends for so long was just because of an incident that i once helped u. Have i not showed u enough concern, or did u not show me enough concern? This has been going through my head like a bullet in the brain eversince my good friend shot me this sentence.
However, i complained. I show my unhappiness. And then i'm back tgt with them again. I'll not forsake my friends because they don't know how to appreciate me. I'll try to create a meet up. But if it fails i'll just keep quiet and when they're ready and all cooled, they can find me once again. The last u should ever do is to critise ur friends. This is what i should nvr ever do. All the friends i have now are all equally treated by me. That's why u see me hopping from one group to another. In fact i do not have a certain group of friends. Cos i'm a part of every. Sometimes i get left out. But sometimes i'm the intermediary linking all the suppliers to the customers. I may have so many friends, but my good friend maybe narrowed down to only one person. u noe who u're, my counsellor. -People who really love you and want best for u. :)
Guys may be accepting to girls. Yes. But that is because we are of the opposite sex. do u see all guys being accepting to guys? They prolly just treat them as brothers who go out to play. If u discriminate ur own sex aren't u discriminating ur own kind? or is it u wanna be a guy cos u're one who accepts the accepting?! guys and girls should be treated equally. I see girls discriminating girls and end up with NO FRIENDS! YOU ARE ACTING LIKE A NOBODY by having this ideology! Why not be a peaceful person, accept wat is so called ur not accepting ppl and be humble.
So much about friends but den again, u can choose not to read wat i say. Cos it is just an opinion. Blogging is half about preaching and half about ur daily life nowadays isn't it? heh.

publish a book

2006-03-18T02:38:00.000+08:00

Under the Laws Of Attraction, it is not a trouble to woo a gal, but actually an effort to woo her. =) Think it this way, what do u do when u face trouble? u avoid trouble. But in wooing a gal, one nvr believes in avoiding but giving a try, so it's the effort. =p

Wel, i just realised that i enjoy intellectual chats too. Had one with a great pal of mine. He is funny. Inspirated.
Some day maybe when i have time i'll write a book. in this case, money is not the issue, that's simply becos i can earn it back, however, it is the time i need. If i write a book, i'll make sure it is based on a true story experience. like duh! And i will make sure that my book is a number one seller world wide and on top of that billions of ppl buy. Perhaps how about having topics like ways to attract guys and turn down a guy etc.. It'll surely hit the 1st on kinokuniya's bulletin board i tell you...

Charis is blunt and straightforward. So many ppl complaining to me that i'm too frank. Well, for yr information there are few who also say that i'm not direct enough. So what m i? Just so complicated.
Seriously, if u don't noe me, i would strong advice you not to attempt. thinking, charis is such a complex person, why bother squeezing and cracking ur sappy brain to freak yrself out of just trying to get-to-know me. Honestly, this cannot be done by just reading my damn blog. if u sincerely wanna noe me better just approach me. cos i don want you to end up as classified under stalkers or secret admirers; although somehow i do look up to these ppl.

Today is A ISboutique craze. Cos i bought 5 tops from ISboutique. HOh. it was really crazy cos the tops are those clubbing tops which are kinda sexeeey. Was trying to feel for my Gala dinner dress for cruise. But can't seem to find it. I've tried about 10 dresses today but only few dresses caught my attention. Maybe a mjphosis top would suit me, cos i think a toga dress would look a bit different. Well, shall leave this to next thursday when i do my shopping with my hot babe, Vivian. The gal i adore so much muaks.
Shoes...dress...accessories... Show me what u have... hugzzz...

g2g.-

quadrilateral

2006-03-16T02:41:00.000+08:00

No time for blog no time always no time busy busy busy charis is so busy everyday busy no free time. -agree?????????????? YES

But now NO, cos i just blogged =)

In life u need a good mentor. YES, i believe so. When u go out to work, u wouldn't wanna remain as a pathetic OFFICE GIRL for life.!! Well, unless u're fine with a low stable income. But if u know me well enough u know that a stable income which is relatively not high is not enough to suffice me. Elementary, It is good to start off with basics, at least if u're a bloody supervisor u jolly well know what duties your freakin subordinates should be doing. lol. ok back to the topic, So what does this mentor do? He'll of cos guide u through and impart all his skills to you. On factor, I believe in maximising ur capacity but not just gaining the adequate experience. Cognitive Content. KEEP READING. So at the same time u need to pick up skills and be smart! not merely smart at talkin but at ur reactions. You need to be the outstanding one amongst the group. hahaha. well, my mind is always learning and reasoning. I'm someone who is so keen in learning more than anyone can expect. = all these are crazy. becareful know that u'd develop a constant retardation if too much deep-thoughts thinking is done. =P

I wanna learn psychology. It is my damn interest. dad strongly disagrees.

No matter how much rules he sets under my do and don't(s) list, i still respect my dad. You may think that i'm a oh-so-daddy-mummy-girl. No, u know how much i wish i could be rebellious, however this gives saturn a chance to make me lie to my parents about all. Hated those lies i told my parents. I should make up to them, cos i know that i'm an obedient gal if not i would never feel guilty disobeying them. I believe that subrogation rights should be applied here. Thinking that in future me being a parent, i'd want my kid to understand how i feel, simply like how i understand how my parents feel. Moreover, my laudable folks are getting old each day. They deserve a *pat* for raising me up for so long. Sorry popmom, i'm going on 19 this yr but haven't achieved a single career yet. Nevertheless, i'll achieve that something and be successful, because i'm your not just anyone else but your sweetest daugther. *hugz. Well, there are too many things to think of. If u're a parent, you worry about ur kids, and when u age u worry even more. When is death approaching? It is very soon. Aging ppl feel that they are going to die soon. They don't wish to die without any kin ard em. So my mom asked, will u support me when i'm old. My reply is yes i'll. Piece of advice, think about ur parents feel if u haven't been listening to them. =)

tired alr! ok sleep now~ good night.

hmm ming's pub?

2005-10-02T05:47:00.000+08:00

ming's pub .

the old auntie selling tissues at bb interchange underpass

2005-07-15T13:02:00.000+08:00

i believe many people living ard the bukit batok area eye-witnessed an old auntie selling tissue papers at the bb interchange underpass. from wat i recalled..........i have seen her selling tissue papers since i was in secondary school. which is few years back. each time i looked at her expression, she was always frowning...

why was she frowning?

later i came to realise dat she has persevered all these years, earning a living in this harsh society at such an elderly age. selling tissue papers sell and sell. people walked past her ignoring her walk and walked. why was it so. i knew the reasons. i was once like these people. have u walked past her before? or if you nvr come across her. have you walked pass someone with the same situation ignoring? wat were u thinking when u walked past the old auntie knowing her presence is there. so many questions and so many answers.
but it was until ytd i took the courage to give her some money to buy her tissues. I took all the money i had left in my wallet. It was a very small amount of money enough for me to eat my lunch for the next day. No, i did not hesitate to give her the money. But i knew that if i gave her that small sum i can buy some of her tissues, she gets the money. Human beings are not born heartless. We all have a heart and we can be good hearted.
she was delighted! her wrinkled and desperate face lighted up. And she was beaming from ear to ear. Oohhhhhh i felt so glad seeing her smile. den she gave me a few packet of tissue papers. it was too much for me to carry so i say it's ok give me the small bundle. with such small amount of money can make her smile so widely. i felt a good deed has been done.
Almost everyday i walked past her after work. Everyday i said to myself tmr i will buy tissues from her. when i got more money i will buy tissues from her. when i am not rushing home i will buy tissues from her. finding excuses.
i learnt something from her. In fact quite a number.
I did not hav money to eat lunch. My collegues asked me "why you nvr go for lunch?" i jus smiled. However, i told one of my gd collegue dat i bought tissue papers from this old auntie. And she knew why i did not go for lunch.
In the midst of working during lunch time without any food, one of my elder collegues came to me bringing her salad for lunch. She offered to let me try. Try! u try this. u try. i knew tht she just wanted me to eat something. I was moved. for a second, tears filled up my small eyes. den i was thinking, siao ah!!! hahaha. den i told her to stop at this last scoop. den i continued working. Den came another collegue asking me whether i wanna join him for lunch. I didn't wan to! Surprisingly, my two polymates, Kelly and Jason, gave me a packet of HL milk. I was moved again. I did not know why dey bought me milk without knowing why i did not went for lunch. I told them nothing at all. My gd collegue knowing tht i did not had my lunch bought me two sponge kuehs. It was plain but i was moved.
I came to noe tht i have people who really cared for me and concerned. Dat's maybe wat we say by good heart gets good treatment.

Updates

2005-07-12T22:52:00.000+08:00

Hey friends,
Finally i've got some time to update my blog, due to my current attachment i am unable to update my blog that regularly. so pardon me!

Firstly, i wanna blog down a few events which are worth to leave footprints in my blog.
of which are...
Last Friday, i had this ladies' night out with my v.gd secondary school friends. it has been months since we met up with each other. So we meet after school/work for a real simple dinner.
We went to indochine restaurant.ambience was good. In such a place, a meal cannot never be simple without the free dinner, (which costed about 200++ SGD). serious.
let seeee wat we have that day...
For starters,
we had white bait, scallop rolls and indochine house salad.
Main course was,
steamed seabass, cambodian chicken, some veg and soft shell crabs.
And for desserts...
choco fudge, tiramisu, sticky rice with mango and lemongrass creme brulee.
As for drinks tam had a Sex on the beach, Bicardi 151 with coke and Vodka Cranberry. i had a pussyfoot and virgin strawberry margarita.hua had a DILUTED lychee martini and virgin mango margarita and linzz had a pussyfoot and virgin mango margarita.

So yea later on we had this bitch and talking session. where we shared problems between one another. it was rather heartwarming that day. walking down the big tiled pavement like we once did on our graduation day and reminiscing wat we did when we got drunk down tht way. talking about the good old days really brings joy. it is so wonderful to realise tht "hey it has already past two years and we hav kept in contact till now!".
Friends are forever.
many people seek for love not knowing tht dey actually hav been loved from all directions. We should always CHERISH our loved ones dearly. As it is them we seek love from. ciaoz.

Birthday!!!

2005-04-24T12:46:00.000+08:00

I'm eighteen years old~~ heheh. Firstly, it's a long time since i blogged so i shall update you wat i'm up to recently. Currently, i'm having my attachments in this ship management company, Ocean Tankers Pte Ltd. I will be attached to this company for 6 months till october, so i might not be that free to come online. :D. well, it is only the first week of my ITP so i will not comment much but it is rather boring. :/ heh.. anyway enough of all this. talk about...

MY BIRTHDAY!
there are some pictures of my birthday presents. :D

of cos i did had some celebrations with my friends...

(PS. this blog has been written quite some time ago) :D

UNforgettable Jetty Jump 2005 Wee~~

2005-01-14T01:22:00.000+08:00

Today i did the Jetty Jump!~!~!~ Woa SHIOK AH. fun fun fun!! Must have repeated this word "shiok" many times. hahaha.. Nice event to blog down. ok so last week we knew that this week we were going for the jetty jump. So obviously timid me got rather paranoid when i heard this news. hahaz. (the night before i took quite some time to pack my stuffs) hahaz.
so we had 4 teachers for this module. 1 taught theory; another knots; and the other 2 practical. sad to sae, theory teacher likes to pick on me. He called me 5 times today and 3 times last week. his name is Captain TONG. Shit.
BEcos of him i got a new name called CHarrr-Ry.
Anyhow, we put on the life jackets and teacher briefed us on how to jump the jetty. As i mentioned above, Tong likes to pick on me. So i'm his "dummy" and i demonstrated how to jump lor. DUh.
One class had to do the survivor rescue boat first. So our class did it first. half tried to be the rescuers and another half the survivors; done, exchanged rows. Well, we were wearing a life jacket. so u'll cfm float. and i wasn't really comfortable with the life jacket at first. and i didn't noe how to swim backwards. So someone pulled me and swim u see. in the end got kicked by me alot of times. but even if evryone wans me to be responsible i wouldn't care. heh. :p
After the lifeboat was wat i worried the most... hahaha... well it turned out fine. just that at that point of time when u're going to jump ur legs are abit wobly. well, my butt hurts just for a little while for not locking my legs? but hey~ i scored 19/20 for my jump. LOL. That one mark was for bending just a lil bit. We waited for all the classmates to jump the jetty. Some made a BIG impact. hahaha. oops. while waitin we formed a circle in the water. we laid down and just relax in the water..floating on the surface... looking at the clouds... with a hole!!! hahaz... wat u thinkg? it's the sun lah. yea... so relaxing. when everybody jumped the jetty we hooked each other's arms; formed a full circle. And SCREAMED!!! hahaz...cheers to our bravery! WoA THumbs uP for class21. I love the class spirit~ We sang songs and swam our way back to the shore. :D
The other details are Censored. LOL

Long time no bloggin...

2004-11-14T15:51:00.000+08:00

hey... i noe it's a long time since i last blogged... like 2 months ago? sorry about that. cos my com got all these adware bla which caused alot of pop ups when i surfed blogger. pissed me off.. heh, n some other reasons? hehez ;p
now i'm back to blog n more to come yea?

Let me do some updates
recently, busy with stuffs. it's a holiday n i'm still busy. heh.

ma sis's birthday was just over bout 2 weeks ago? oh ya, n it's her 21st birthday. she wore this pink dress on her birthday party. woahz.. it looks beautiful on her. hee. so proud to be her sis.
there are lots to talk about her party? from food to games. hahaz.
well i bet she had a great time. n i had a wonderful time too.! lol :)

last week.
i went to changi airport 2 times in a row. one time is wit ma boy boy; and the other time is to see my Pap off. :D n for both times i bought chocolates in pearls @ changi. woahz. they are yummy.
U can't spend ur whole day there cos it's not that big to explore or wat.
but
i had an enjoyable time for both trips to changi.

wat else.
wahaha brother bought sims 2 for us to play. so it's no more warcraft but sims 2 for us. we'll switch on our computers together and start playing n playing. lol it's funny. esp when we shared a few experiences we had while playing the sims. only one comment to make; sims are nvr satisfied. not to forget an important cheat i.e. motherlode *winkz*

today's a sunday afternoon but it feels like monday? well maybe without my father's nagging n stuffs that makes it seemed like a weekday to me.

heh i g2g now. my brother just bought mac back. hahaz. tataz

Memorable SMA Day at Labrador Park~!!!

2004-09-30T22:11:00.000+08:00

Memorable SMA Day at Labrador Park~!!!

Hoi! wats happening to my Computer?! omg... To all the virus,bugs,pests,and those classified as others harmful to my com, PLEASE LEAVE MY COM ALONE AND FREE FROM ALL THESE!

SMA Day 2004!~
Friday was our SMA Day. held in Labrador Park. Aw~ the impression Labrador Park gave me was "pick litter" hahaz... cos the first time going to Labrador park was when i was in Sec 1? our class had to pick up litter for that darn park! hahaz... hm... so first thought... bad place...

2ndly i was already so shagged... still had to go there to help out... Nvm... But most of the pp who attended were indians... so shitty.. lolz! but still we turned up cos we wanted to give our friends SUpport.for the catwalk. LOL. Everything ran smoothly... which is great... but soon the atmosphere got a bit high~ cos u noe... indians... lose control easily...

after the catwalk... i walked to the jetty... there was no moon or stars... maybe a big star beside me... so didn't feel so moody at the jetty... very memorable.

-Got Some Snaps on the Evening view-

<-i like this alot alot it's beautiful... purple sunset

Next day after SMA Day...

Went back to Labrador Park again...did some cleaning up for CIP hours... U see... Wateva gotta do with Labrador is all about CIP... *Whole life Wasted* hahahz... quoted" hmz,after that helped a jap uncle in fishing... for a moment i felt that life was so simple :D ... caught a snapper fish... which the jap uncle said he's gonna cook for dinner! yummy~ heez... he's a cheerful man :)

-Took few Snaps in the Morning-

<-u can see the rocks beneath. it's low tide in the morning :)
<-caught this puffer fish a few times... but had to let it go...

DMTM 1B/21/22'04!~!~!

2004-09-20T01:31:00.000+08:00

DMTM 1B/21/22'04!~!~!

in one of my earlier entries i mentioned that i took some class photos... now that i've gotten all the pics in my com i shall upload em in my bloggy. :D

Class girls... 22 July 2004

Class boys doing human pile... 15 Sep 2004

Recently, i got a ZY. we r in the same class.
He pasted a story which he said made him close to tears. i felt that it was touching..but not to that extend...well here it goes

how can any1 ever b ashamed of being associated with Him?

Message: Jesus....
Message: "Tomorrow morning," the surgeon began,
"I'll open up your heart..."

"You'll find Jesus there," the boy interrupted.

The surgeon looked up, annoyed "I'll cut your heart open,"
he continued, to see how much damage has been done..."

"But when you open up my heart, you'll find Jesus in there," said the boy.

The surgeon left.

The surgeon sat in his office, recording his notes from the surgery,
"...damaged aorta, damaged pulmonary vein, widespread muscle degeneration.
No hope for transplant, no hope for cure.
Therapy: painkillers and bed rest. Prognosis:, "
here he paused, "death within one year."

He stopped the recorder, but there was more to be said.
"Why?" he asked aloud.
"Why did You do this?
You've put him here;
You've put him in this pain; and
You've cursed him to an early death. Why?"

The Lord answered and said, "The boy,
My lamb, was not meant for your
flock for long, for he is a part of My
flock, and will forever be.

Here, in My flock, he will feel no pain, and
will be comforted as you cannot imagine.
His parents will one day join him here,
and they will know peace, and
My flock will continue to grow."

The surgeon's tears were hot, but his anger was hotter.
"You created that boy, and You created that heart.
He'll be dead in months. Why?"

The Lord answered, "The boy, My lamb,
shall return to My flock,
for He has done his duty: I did not put My lamb
with your flock to lose him,
but to retrieve another lost lamb."

The surgeon wept.

The surgeon sat beside the boy's bed;
the boy's parents sat across from him.
The boy awoke and whispered, "Did you cut open my heart?"

"Yes," said the surgeon.

"What did you find?" asked the boy.

"I found Jesus there," said the surgeon.

Author Unknown - Celebrate Jesus in 2004!

If you aren't ashamed to do this, please follow the directions listed below:

Jesus said,
"If you are ashamed of me,
I will be ashamed of you before my Father.."

I Am Not Ashamed. Pass this on only if you mean it.
"Yes, I do Love God. He is my source of existence and Savior.
He keeps me functioning each and everyday.
Without Him, I will be nothing. Without him, I am nothing,
but with Him I can do all things through
Christ that strengthens me." (Phil 4:13)

AMEN!

BAck to SchoOl...

2004-09-13T20:47:00.000+08:00

BAck to SchoOl...

So glad... Thought that the paper that i'll confirm fail... not onli passed... but got 64%... So happy... :)... so far passed all my modules and with distinctionz. smilez~
Got good results. My mom was delighted and happy. But i still feel so sick and shagged. Initially, i felt alright.but i feel a hole in my heart. may be i'm missing him. i feel so weird. maybe its just me and all me. i wonder y i still feel so stressed. i'm really really very tired. don't feel like seeing anyone right now. just wanna be alone, being in a world of my own...with him. Leading our simple life... but it's so impossible... i still feel something deep down in my heart feeling sad...crying or hurt.. that when i talk to him i feel anger. What's with me? M i mentally problematic? i'm sorry nic... pple..do u have deep thoughts at times? Sometimes u kip thinking of answers to all the questions in ur head. but everything gets worse. I guess i'm not fully recovered. There are times i have serious mood swings. that i don't care about things around me... i just really really wanna know what caused me to be so sad. U know? I just noe i'm sad. the more i try to make myself happy and make others happy; the bloody worse i feel later.
Above may sound unfamiliar to u... but i feel this way... everybody has their own problems... this is my biggest problem... feeling depressed again...

Who can bring me sunshine? cause i cant give myself a sunshine anymore...

Exams Are Over~

2004-09-06T03:07:00.000+08:00

Exams are finally over and now i'm having holidays!! wowz... it's been a long week... lots and lots of stuff to do... bombarded with alot of things... wat else can i sae... i'm tired... let me rest for a week.

sorry frenz... will blog real soon...
mmuacckx to all :>)

Sunny day!!! Woo~

2004-08-20T19:07:00.000+08:00

Met up with ramona today!! Wowz... It's been a long time eversince we last had a chat like this" before! And i mean a really long time! It was a SUnnY day~ which is Great for Sun-TaNNing! haha... We bought ice-cream and drinks... Then we started chatting away... lots and lots to chat about... We were like bitching all the way lol... issit something not right? haha but anyway... somewhere half way thru our conversation ramona's sis came to join us!!!...her sis just had a hair cut which looks so sweet on her =)... The tan came out not too bad la... maybe cos we didn't consistently go for sun-tanning... But nvm... more of such meet ups is sure a soon to come thing! LOL

-o- So AbNormal Me -o-

2004-08-14T01:37:00.000+08:00

Don't know why these few days my heart seems to beat so fast... ???
Just now my father told me that my fore head is quite similar to my mom's. And that we seem to look more alike. He also said i grew slightly fatter n taller... wow that's a period of time eversince my dad has really took a good look at me.. He told me that... when i was still in my mom's womb... the gynaecologist did the scans n realised i have much longer thighs then the normal. is there a diff? i'm still short...
wow just ate finish an orange... so juicy :)

Suddenly inspirated to write this very simple poem...

One of these days...
On this quiet and cold night,
allowing my tears to be blown,
away with the wind.
I wanna see lotsa stars...
twinkling, and
shining brightly,
in the dark skies.

Near enough to touch,
I can see fireflies.
Please let me transform...
like a guardian,
so i can be ur light...
And that u'd be able to c my smile,
in the dark...

Just a sec,
within a sec,
where dreams seem to be near...
maybe i'd be lucky enough,
to see a shooting star?
So that i can make a wish...
and pray...
for everlasting love...

-Charis

^Fireworks^

2004-08-11T02:34:00.000+08:00

Went to see fireworks on Sunday with deardearz... They were beautiful...

Some pictures of the fireworks taken that day...

Nice Right? (I know dun look complete... hahaz :X) But the fireworks only lasted for ard 15mins? yup,that short... But to watch it with the one u love... it's so sweet...
Like wat huilin said. Almost half of the Sgporeans went to c the fireworks... Everywhere's so congested with people! Saw some ppl brought they mats and sat there playing UNO while waiting for the fireworks festival to commence. The whole of nicole highway were packed with people waiting by the railings... Standing... I guess that's one of the best spots... Nevamind bout that aniwae. Dear n I got a good spot too... just beside us was the Carnival Concert 3. Toro, 5566, R&B & Cyndi were there at the Concert... But the concert started at 9pm... half an hour after the fireworks... N i had to be home before 10 so i didn't have the chance to watch the Concert.
Even so... i was reallie reallie happy that day... cos of dearz :) ... this big pig of mine huh wore so yandao so cute~ i was kinda shocked when i saw him actually... but anyway... this is the first time ever i seen fireworks with someone so special to me... -blogged- 08/08/04

P@cked

2004-08-04T21:55:00.000+08:00

Hey~sorry k... for not blogging lately... to compensate... i'll blog down everything which happened to me within this entry ya! winkz-
Firstly, I wanna take this chance to sincerely apologise to my dear... Sorry dear *hugz*
School's a Madness!!! lots of tutorials & assignments to do. Wat the --- they think we r? superman/women? this is crazy. N + this 2 irritating people~... crap... adds stress ok. i'm already stressed enough... luckily i've got a few great pals in school who really brightened up my day. thanks gurls~ Oh ya, recently, i joined this hip hop thingy... as cca... it's my second cca i joined after BP mentoring... Had my first lesson...pple there were fine...the instructor's like us a sp stud but he's 3rdyr..nice&quite humourous guy... hahaz. It was really a very last min decision to join this... i hope i can cope with it cos i'm already having muscle aches! it's a real sad case manz... should have exercise regularly... wahaz...
Anyway fri...which is yesterday... i went to ikea with my sis... then we went to queensway shopping centre too... it's nice going out with her... we both did enjoy~ rite jie. although it's like 3 hours spent outside together... Wowz... bought some stuff n look at furnitures... oh yea we even sat n lie on some of them! hahaz... nice~ we said ok to go swimming at jurong... i'll be looking forward to that day yea jie! DUDE~

I think i'm gettin kinda fair nowadays... always wanted to have a nice tan... but dear prefers me to be fair... sis also prefers mi fair... but i'm like not so fair... n need time to become that fair... so ay wat to do...
Went home with dear today... after dance... kinda tired n weak... but wat to do i wanted to c him... after a quarrel... so how weak i'll turn up... missed the chance to go out with the angels... cos i'm really not that good condition to go that far... sorry... but actually after seeing dear my gastric pains seemed to disappear... unexpectedly maybe i've recovered... or is this called the power of love? :)
tmr day n i dear n i r going to c fireworks~ cant wait for it to happen :D...

WilD wiLd WET!!

2004-07-26T01:43:00.000+08:00

Went to WWW with Huilin on friday! So excited... hahaz.. first we meet up at dover mrt then took mrt all the way to pasir ris... Actually i was kinda angry with li dear... but nvm it's over anyway and moreover WWW on that day is wat that matters!~
I had lotsa fun at wild wild wet... but onli spent 2hrs++ there... cos there was quite little games there and the weather was not so right. Reached paris ris ard 1pm... ate lunch at whitesand... wow had a bird eye's view... it's nice eatin at the food court =D.. Cos i was not feeling well... I had to take some medicine... but i dunnoe how to... cos i dunnoe how to swallow a pill! omg~ so useless rite... then under Huilin's guidance managed to i swallowed 2 pills! at the 1st attempt~. *Smilez* Thanks deardear Huilin~
First, we took the skyrider in WWW... we could see different rides and pools of WWW from the top view... but sad to sae I was like screaming halfway thru the ride... hahaz... oops :X ... Next we tried the raft slide... which spins 360degrees... to me, that was the best ride we took... cos we had the whole slide to ourselves with a little didi... kekez... he's sho cute... huilin kept looking at him all the while while i was busy getting the thrills... very fun indeed =) ... Then we walked to this children playground... We tried the slide... so childish :/ hahaz... We were already totally wet by that time... Of cos lar... but who cares... we rent a float for the shiok river... then we tried to share the float... but cant... so i pushed huilin... heez... n i tried to swim... huilin taught me a few skills... *grinz* After that we dragged the float to this pool called the Tsunami. This pool is really special... It has tidal waves and the feeling was great. At first cos i was feelin kinda sick i couldn't take the strong waves so i didnt dare to go any further... but so nice of Huilin... she asked me to sit on the float and she pulled me to the waves... wow! i could feel them... so big and stong... so nice... =) By that time, the sky was partially dark... so we decided to end of by going thru the shiok river once again... Hee this time i picked up more swimming skills :D... I learnt how to float hee!!! Finally, after one round of the shiok river... it started to drizzle... then we pack up bathe... then set off... bid farewell to WWW... :)
We took lotsa photos using our cameras... at WWW, in the bathroom, in the bus, in the mrt, at the bus stop...


Wet Me Look~                  Wet Beauty LiNz!              Huilin & Me


       So Wet~                         So "Sad" Face


At the Bus Stop                  Behind is WWW!

Buddy Bud Bud!!!

2004-07-22T19:15:00.000+08:00

woaz. Caihua just blogged our outing ytd. N now it's my turn to blog it down too! =) Missed this great buddy of mine real lots. Miss the times we were in cls chatting away...
Caihua was real nice lorz... Her lessons finished at 10am... But becos she didnt wan to go home and she forgot to bring her ezlink card, she waited for me in school from 10am to 3pm... till i dismissed, then acc me do my tutorial till 4pm... wow...6 hrs... *Thanks bud =)* So long...And we onli had 3 hrs to go out(minus the transportation time) cos i need to be home before 8pm...
So we went to causeway point... somewhere not too far... took bus 189... it was a long trip... n we having camera shots on bus... hahaz... oh! and the poor old uncle in front of us was quite fed up... cos the shuttle sound was disturbing him... hahaz... felt so guilty man :p
Got off the bus... we did the first thing any other "experience" shoppers do... hahaz :x that is to draw money la! wowz... caihua was kinda broke... so nvm we decided not to spend so much money... So we started off shopping... went in the 1st shop... ice lemon tee... Actually there was nth much... but we spent ard 1 hr in that small shop. hahaz... Cos i caught hold of this cap... which u call it 'visor'? ... cap which is hollow on top... onli to shade the eyes... It's quite nice... with the word vondutch... haa but in the end we didnt buy it...
Then i need to buy some papers... so we went to Popular... There we spent abt another hr... wowz... we bought a few albums... then saw a photo frame so like peiyin~~ cos it's a star frame... :D ... Took lots of photo... After that went home... How fun... Although we onli went to 2 shops... We really enjoyed ourselves alot... Cant wait till the next outing again! N also with the Angels~ =)

I'm taller than 165cm :X Caihua holding cherry photo frame

Bud Piggy

My da da hai tun... 'Lucky'

2004-07-18T11:59:00.000+08:00

I went out with li dear today... to watch Spiderman 2. the show was ok...not bad... but i really felt that today's a very happy day for me =)... ytd was our 5th month anniversary... *grin* today li dear gave me a pink colour dolphin stuff toy for me! heehx.. he noes i like this kinda stuff toy somemore took the trouble to run 2 places jus to get a pink piggy stuff toy for me... but there was no pink pigs ard... so a dolphin! heex. thanks dear! i love it so much. hehez =) The dolphin's soo cutex, pinky and soo hugable. We named it 'Lucky'... cos it brought us luck :D ... and thru' out the whole movie i was actually huggin Lucky... the feeling was great hee... my 1st time huggin a stuff toy in the theatre. Now Lucky's on my bed... and i can sleep with it... hug it while watching tv... using the com... do so many things with it...jus like my dear dear's with me... =)
Took some photos... hee ;p :

   -Front View-                   -Side View-


   -Top View-                    -Fake Death :P -

The piXXy Day

2004-07-15T17:57:00.000+08:00

Haix...Recently li dear's so sick... Really sick until very jialat... N i'm here still doing my stuff... nvr really cared abt him... -Dear Sorry... Hope u'll recover from ur fever soon *HuGx*-

Today's one day i would definitely blog down cos '1B/21 Galss Rocks!' We took a family pic today! All thanks to my *baby 66* - my new handphone panasonic X66. Today's the 1st day i use my new hp... So excited.. like it alot cos it's silver and cute =) So cute that everyone saw it said it was really CUTE! wow... So during my 2hrs break... i had lunch with called ourselves- pathetic gals. then dunnoe y lar... i started usin my camera... then i snapped alot of ppl... then liwen... she also started snapping all of us...individual pics... It started off with like 6 of us... then we wanted to take a group photo... jus nice when we were positioning ourselves... Vivian and gang came~ hahaz... wowz great... now we can all take a big family pic. Then just nice again eugene walked past us! poor him tried to avoid us but too bad who ask him to be the onli one there at that time. So he helped us take a photo... hahaz... The first photo we took... There was a "ghost shadow" behind at the reflections. WaHhh~ we all freaked out. So scary... So we all went to the somekinda rooftop... but its like alot of pple saw us taking photos... nvm so we continued... took the 2nd pic... 3rd... 4th... 5th...wow the 12 of us... it was the family pic of all the sisters... the pics all turned out quite nice =)

School life...

2004-07-08T16:49:00.000+08:00

I'll try to update my blog everyday... Maybe now goin to school is a good way of relaxing myself... i don mean studies and everything... but the environment is much better than staying at home... N over there people trust me...
Almost one week of schooling is over... Today i answered a question correctly during the Economics Lesson... hee feel a kinda sense of achievement... Finally my lecturers pronouced my name correctly! hahaz... Today my cls rep liwen... she asked us whether we wanted to play "jia jia jiu"... Like family kinda game... hahaz sounds quite cute... she said this will bring friendship closer... n YeA~ I agreed... So i helped her nominate pp in our family... Wowz,she was very fast...she quickly said she wanted to be the smallest!! hahaz... N i'm her Mother.. -_-" ... so incredible~ haa should be the other way round larz... hahaz... Then i have 2 other daughthers -_-"Zzz ... Kendy & Kelly =) hahaz... + 2 other sisters... one elder sis one younger sis... cos zimin la another one quickly sae mus be younger than me... onli jennifer nice enough to be my elder sis... i feel so old suddenly hahaha.. then we're still recruiting pple... sounds quite "childish" huhz... :X So after lessons... we asked yvonne and the rest to join but too eager to go home la so tmr then i continue to ask hahaz... then my "daughters" keep asking for father... omgz.. then anyhow choose... -_-"z! hahaz.. wowz...met yingzi miss each other so much leh... =) then today i got a buddyclsmate...jessin(not sure the spelling) called my name from afar... I thought she & tt butch were kinda 'unfriendly' cos they keep staring with at me giving me buay song looks...wrong wrong lar so wrong leh... her voice so sweet lor... a little bit higher pitch than me... nice =) hahaz... then we chatted away for a while... That's Good that's good... =)
So tired these few days... Slept in the bus... N guess wat... Zhenwei & frenz took the same bus as me... Muz have saw me sleeping... Cos Zi Min said she saw someone kept looking at our direction... Issit anot huh zhenwei? so dots lehz... then got off the bus then sae Hi to me... (x_x) dotdotdot...
i still think my perm sucks... Cos frenz saw my friendster said they prefer my straight hair and it's so bulky... then my hair condition is sososooo bad lor... like wild grass... feel like cutting it away... but i'll miss my long hair... jus have to bear with it... i think that's all ba... got anything to write then i update blog again... heez... keep in contact =D

Singapore Poly Life .

2004-07-07T18:36:00.000+08:00

Orientation Week is over... Just started lessons... Lectures are boring; but my Lecturers are funny. hahaz =) My eyes are both half opened... all the time... so tired... We had to call our lecturers Captain. Cos they had many years of experience in the Shipping industry, n all of them were once Captains. My lecturers made lessons interesting cos of the many stories they had experienced. Like pirates, and many more... The modules which i'm taking now are like Geography...but is the more profound Geography. We have to learn abt transportation and study the world map. Economics? no comments, biz and stats dunnoe teacher teach teach ok understand. when do tutorial dunnoe wat Sai the question is abt. so complicating. hahaz. yea thats abt lectures. oh ya one more module. Seriously i think this module is redundant. The module is IDEAS. It's abt creativity...the whole of SP is taking this course. okz fine. Had the first lesson and i was kena suan-ed. By teacher... Cos he was saeing abt the trend is all abt jpop. So okz... He showed us a powerpoint presentation. then one slide was this pic of ayumi on times mag coverpage. Then he point at me n sae looks like this gal. N he asked for my name n sae oh so call u Charis Ayumi. duH~. The whole cls look at me... so pai sae... dotdotdot. hmm, watched some video clips abt disasters...found out that many causualites lost their lives when a slightest mistake of not closing the deck can cause a ship to sink. Sad... hmmz... 800+pp lost their lives... onli 100+ pp survived... Haiz... okz... Then actually i found this guy rather familiar in my buddy cls. but i didnt really take notice until his fren asked me... R u from Pei Hwa. I said ya... then when teacher marked attendence. I realised that he was my Pri Sch Fren.. VARREN. Still as crappy as ever, in cls still so 'Responsive'... he's kinda HH. Hip Hop i mean. together with his fren Anthony... looks kinda mixed blood! cool... both of them so black... as black as indians. dotss. Gal Frenz in my cls together with my buddy cls are nice peeps. We go as a group. Starting to feel that frenz there are nice. Recently quite bothered abt what cca i should join or maybe... shouldn't join at all?
*Actually I miss quite a num of people... Miss chatting and goin out with nic... miss my bud caihua... my fav sis peiyin n chialer... my best frenz ramona n joanna... miss another of my dear aka my student huilin... miss my ex-collegue cum ex-classmate tammie VP... these people are closest to me... miss goin online... miss chatting... miss shopping... sometimes i miss blackie sunshine babe yingzi...*